Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween! Treat or Trick? I think this will be the hottest quote for today. Kindly remind that remember to wish Witch JOey. Or else you will get spell from me. Spell that you're happy. XD When I was small, I used to watch Sabrina the teenage witch. It's cool to use magic and fly with a broom. 

Saturday night is my movie night. Yesterday watched 3 movies till 1.30am. Just follow law@我在政府部门的日子, Love in Disguise@恋爱通告 and After Shock@唐山大地震. As usual, movie that directed by Jack Neo, funny but with some important messages. He is brave to comment his own country like that. If someone dare to do so in Malaysia, I think before the film can be watch in theater, he or she already get ISA and jailed for 2 years. I don't know Singapore law so better don't comment anything. After Jay Chou, another talented singer became director. Enjoy your film and like the song 你不知道的事. Supposed I should feel upset for the story of After Shock, yet, I felt nothing. Not to say I have no feeling, just that I'm focusing on thinking something. What is the impact caused by a natural disaster and how to face a new life after it happened. 

Glad that Malaysia is free from it but it fulled with tragedy and accident. Terrible. Just like these few weeks, how many accidents related to bus. If natural disaster, you can't runaway. But those accidents are caused by human being. How can a bus driver without license can drive for so many years? When only Malaysia will take more and more action to prevent all these horrible tragedy happen? Recently too many natural disasters and tragedies happened. This world isn't safe to live. Even mummy kept on telling me to be careful and take care all the time. I also hope that I'm alright all the time as I don't want those who care for me to be worry. Yet, if it's faith to happen, how am I going to escape? Keep on thinking of this. How good if I'm really a witch.

It's time to study Malaysia history after one year plus. This week I'm going to sit two tests. Study study study by burning midnight oil. JOey, gambateh ya! ^^

Random

Cooking red bean now. It's torturing me. Cook for one hour plus, those beans still the same. I hate to cook red bean. Take such a long time to be done. That's why I rarely cook. By the way, I didn't sago from home. Or else it will be perfect. Haiz~

Miss the desserts cooked by BIBI as she will put sago for me. Yum Yum. But excluded for the sago pudding made for Uncle Peter. I tot eat with "gula Malacca". Who know he asked BIBI put in sugar. Right after I put into my mouth, straight away vomit. The whole cup of dessert threw away. I don't want to waste food but that things really can't be eaten. Wonder who Uncle Peter eat it?! As a result, I asked BIBI never cook such thing anymore. 

During semester break, BIBI cooked dessert which is purple in color. Even though I like purple color, but I not really accept it. But I still eat as I tot there will be sago. Who know mummy told BIBI that LingLing dislike sago so don't put sago. Even BIBI knew I like sago, how come mummy said like that? So, I told BIBI that don't listen what mummy said. For me, sago is more important. Please don't take away sago from me~ 

Wonder where to get material about ISA? Internet source are more on people view and opinion. Yesterday went to library and search for a book. Who knew I get nothing after spent so many times to go through "Malaysia Akta". Don't tell me that I need to go government department or library Kuala Lumpur. ISA is a hot issue from last time till now. How come not many info bout it. Is it because those who mention about ISA, all get ISA and get jailed for 2 years? So "kersian"~ No wonder it is the cruelest "Akta" in Malaysia. 

Think of last month. Wonder what is right and what is wrong. Who care~ It's no longer important after that day. By the way, I have changed my phone number. Finally. Of coz, you can still get me by that number. Yet, it depends on your luck as the new owner might not tell you. Rather than erase some phone numbers, better to change my own contact number. Slowly by slowly, I will change all the method which can contact me. I need my peaceful life back.

Just A Good Night

Yesterday night, I sent good night to my friends. As usual, those who are close to me, for sure will reply good night. As they all know that I like to receive good night message. Thanks to my dear who sent me message from last time till now. While another friend, GY, we have been lost contact. Too bad~ Anyway, I will always remember that my 1st handmade new year card is from you. 

For those who ask why suddenly I will send good night to them. Haha~ Just simply without any reason. Actually can just reply good night. If someone suddenly send good night to me, I will feel warm. There is a person that I tot he will ask are you sent wrongly. Who know he didn't. Thanks ya. It shown that I shouldn't give up this friend for any reason. No matter what you did before this, already passed. And something between us won't happen anymore. 

I miss my Wretch. But I forced to close it. There are lots of memories there. Good night from friends, stars from Pygie, comment from Mr Chong, my Taiwanese friends, my stories and etc. Thank god that I can still contact with Mr Chong via sms. It's glad to have a friend like him. We exchange our view bout something. I gained many throughout a conversation with him. Miss the time we did something lame. 

Did I mentioned that I went to Ipoh last Saturday? I entered Popular for twice. Yet, I didn't buy any reading material. Ish~ I want to read book. Why the book I want haven't import to Malaysia? Just know the name of the book. Never or forever. Wonder what content will it contain. I need to read Orange book to torture my mind. Spend time on reading is much better than thinking. I don't want my brain cells to die that fast. Enjoy life before you say bye bye to me. Then only you will remember that I'm a good body owner. =P

Next week date I also haven't confirm. Why I keep on think of next year gathering with friends and CNY? Plan to go many places but nobody accompany me to go. Pulau Perhentian, wonder can I go there alone. For sure, many people will kill me for doing so. Take bus is dangerous, go alone is dangerous, you are a girl therefore more and more dangerous. I know I know. So I won't go alone.

Yesterday my friend asked bout Christmas. Oh God! The day I dream for the whole year is going to come. Two months to go. Where will I be on that day? Thailand again? I don't think so as too many people. I don't want to trapped in the traffic jam again and celebrated my Christmas on the bus with many unknown people. Singapore? Then I will go disturb my cousin brother's date with his girlfriend. Nobody will blame me, right? Johor? I already get offer from Aunt Shirley. I don't want my day wasted at home again. It supposed to be my birthday! Besides, that day have many memories for my family members.

Finally our gang photo is uploaded. Hope next week will on. Last two weeks, we went to temple after our yam cha session. Long time didn't see my best friend, Biix. Lengzai, right? Even my Mr Lionel said so. Glad that our gang still the same after so many years. Just that our sub gang is becomes bigger and bigger. As you know, join us will have lots of fun for doing something crazy. Hope we can have gathering in KL again like few months back. I don't think I will go to Sunway next Thursday. So perhaps next time.

Deepavali is coming. Mummy is going to bake cake again. This time I will make my own cake. Guarantee pass and nice. Before this failed, it all because mummy put in too many milk. Gonna give some to Mr Chan as a support for his exam. Guess what?! It's like every Deepavali, I will have the same menu. I dislike to have curry early in the morning but no choice. Except curry chicken, curry mutton which I won't take as I will feel like eating my own species. After go home, have to drink many water to relief my gastric pain. Thanks god, our house just adjacent to each other. XD

Random

This evening you sms-ed to me. I replied you. Supposed I shouldn't reply you, but that was before this. Rather to say that I break my word, better to say that I don't need to keep my words since nobody will appreciate it. Even though I replied your sms but it doesn't mean that you can use me as JOey map like last time. Treat you as my friend as please use your kindness treat me back like last time. I'm not the nice kitty few years ago.




I have closed my Wretch. If you visited it after this morning, you will know it. It's no longer the place for me and someone. Those memories I wanted to erase. There caused me lots of problem from last time till now. Better to close it and concentrate my world here. What I need is just a peaceful life. Please don't come and create problem for me, I hate problem and lazy to solve problem. Kill my brain cells and use up my energy. I prefer to let my mind empty and enjoy my peaceful life.




If you want to quarrel with me, go ahead and make me mad. Either I treat you as abnormal or I will accompany you to quarrel. Such a long time didn't quarrel, afraid that my stamina not enough to talk loudly. Wonder why others like to quarrel. It's exhausting. Better to keep your EQ. Some people won't know you're worrying and caring for them, better don't make yourself angry and care more of yourself.




Next week on, I'm going to have more free time. XD Mummy said go home every week. Hurray! But see how 1st.










P/S: Deleted and blocked some people in my contact list. Don't worry. I won't ask you to leave me. I go away by my own. After sometime, my world need "gotong-royong" to clear off some unwanted things. Glad that my world is clean now. Bye bye to those unwanted person and things.

Caring

Actually I don't mind to care for my friend. Just that don't lie. It's hurt to find out some truth. I tot I can treat nothing happen but I can't. I do really care for you as I treat you as my friend. How can you be that cruel? Very disappointed when I found the truth. I won't hate you, won't blame you, won't angry. Just let it go and all the best to you. 

Such a long time didn't chat with West. As usual, you told me a lots and care for me. Sorry that I forget your name. But I recorded you in my diary book. Thanks for what you did few years back. It can be a simple action yet I felt touch for it. Don't worry, I will be alright all the time and don't imagine too much. Take care is just take care not I'm going to commit suicide. 

It's time to sleep. My eyes are tired. Like what West told me, tomorrow will be a brand new day. Yup, it'll be as some people won't be around. I shall buy champagne to celebrate. Looking forward for this weekend. ^^ Good night.

Random

First of all, congratulations to both of my cousin brothers who convo on last Saturday and Sunday. Due to this, I can only pick one to go as different venue. Sorry to cousin Daniel that I didn't turn up to your convo.

Last Sunday, attended cousin brother's convo in UTP. He is an engineer and going to work in Arab Saudi. Tomorrow morning he will take flight in Changi Airport. All the best ya my cousin brother. See you on CNY. Wear the dress I bought in Time Square. Thanks for those who praising for my dress. Yet, I need to put down my weight. Besides, my legs pain till can't walk. I shouldn't wear high heel and walked for long distance. 

My semester break was end. Spent most of my time at home. Daddy didn't bring me for any vacation. Too bad. Miss primary and secondary time. One year can go for trip at least two times. Never mind, plan to go Thailand again end of this year with family. Many stalls to walk around and shop shop shop. I want to stay in Lee Garden. Even I can't go out, I can still shop within the building. By the way, I should grab the chance to try the fast food in Thailand.

Went to Time Square this Tuesday. Met someone with his girlfriend. Wonder he saw me or not. Tot of buying clothes. Then talked to the staff as he said he was hungry. Who knew he asked me to marry him by giving me thousand thousand of money. Requested help from my friend by eye contact. I really don't know how to response. Told mummy bout it and mummy said he is abnormal. Bought a new bag for just RM25. As usual big to put in more things and easy for me runaway. ^^

This afternoon, daddy came to pick me home as daddy went to Seri Kembangan for meeting. Since I came to KL for study, this was the 1st time. Normally, I will take bus or friend sent me to LRT station. On the way back, traffic jam as accident happened. Going to figure out what happen next morning through newspaper. Wonder how the signboard fall on the road. Pity for those drivers who going to the North.

Felt proud of myself when I dare to speak confidently in front of the class. Thanks for Miss Au Yong, my tutor, who helped me for my explanation. I asked what come 1st in your mind when you heard bout breast cancer in order to explain what is common sense. Hope I will be that brave in my following presentation. Feel like fall in love with sociology class as I get to know different culture. I think it will help me a lot since I plan to travel alone to Nepal and Japan.

Ish~~~ Someone tot I'm idiot. He sent "I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you" to me through FB message. Then asked me what the sentences about. At 1st, I want to answer but ended up with two words, google translate. Glad that I didn't answer him, or else, he will talk nonsense again. Wonder where is his friend, West, now. Such a long time didn't receive his post. Hope he will alright as his occupation quite danger. 


Sometimes we are care for someone or something. When we get to know something, that someone or something seem not that important anymore. Perhaps I should say that I'm injured because of it. But people dare to hurt you, you should recover as fast as possible to show that you're not easy to be bullied.

Random

Went back to KL on Monday night. Then came back to hometown the next day. Have lunch with YeeMun at 4Season after speaking test finished. Then, shopping at Time Square. Bought myself a dress and jumpsuit. Then a simple shirt for mummy. After fitting, I gave mummy the jumpsuit. Not bad~ Second time bought clothes for mummy and it's suit mummy. Happy that my choice didn't rejected.

 

Met a Malay girl and chit chat with her all the way back. Feel like whenever I'm alone in bus, those kids will look at me and play with me. Is it because I look friendly to them? She taught to sing Malay song and we played together. As a result, others passengers looked at us. Besides, she asked me to take her picture. Then, I said I will put it in Internet. Yet, she don't understand what I mean. 

Yesterday, cooked spaghetti for my lunch. Try carbonara instead of tomato with mushroom. I offered someone that I cook for him but he doesn't want it. Fine~ I cooked for myself. Yum Yum. BiBi wanted to help me yet I don't want. I cooked it myself and washed all the things myself. Well done~ As normally I lazy to wash. If I got tools in Setapak, sure I will cook more frequent. Yet, I have only a rice cooker.  

Witch

Slept for 4 hours. Then wake up for no reason. Checked my mailbox and blog again and the same result. NO~ Wonder why I looking forward for it even I know I will be disappointed?

I have too many identities in front of different people. Who am I? Curious. Oh no~ I'm emo+ing again. Such a long time didn't emo like this. Perhaps I should take this opportunity back to old time. Feel the JOey who will emo late in the night. Tonight I hate myself for being too kind to others. I should not let my kindness become a tool for others. You know what? I will look down at you if you can't solve a simple problem and straight away ask for my help. I'm not pointing to one person but many person. I'm willing to help anyone but please don't abuse my kindness. Fed up with all these annoying person!

Feel sleepy~ But I don't want to sleep. Let me accompany the emo+ing JOey one more while. I won't let myself repeat the same mistake anymore. I don't care what you all think or say bout me. Go on with it. I will be fine even I injured badly. I have the ability to recover and I'm no longer the JOey who you all know before this.

I still remember that someone said I'm a witch. Ya, I wish I am then I can make spell on you all. Curse those people who I care will be alright, curse those people who treat as tool leave me as far as possible. Witch is a bad person, take note of this and stay away from me. End of this month will be Halloween, my day. 

Gosh, I think Witch JOey get cold. Better rest now. Tata~

Sono Sola

Slept for 4 hours. Consider a good sleep for me for past one month. Perhaps sleep can stop my brain to think. I'm alone at home now. Tot of continue sleeping after mummy waked me up. Maybe this afternoon. Such a long time didn't take my nap. 

Since I won't have anything to do, plan to clean my bedroom. My clothes mess up and cause me hard to find my clothes. Hate to look for clothes after taking shower, walk up and down yet I can't get it. I might need a GPS to detect where are them. However, I don't have to motivation to do it. Lazy when I see my clothes mix together like rojak. By the way, daddy won't step in my room as he can't stand it. XD

Yesterday met two of my secondary teachers, Miss Loke and Mr Chin. After that incident, I'm not dare to visit my school. Miss my secondary school time. Sometimes I can skip few classes due to spot check. To be honest, I miss spot check. Those who cooperate with me especially Kyan will know the reason why. The more people "kena", the happier I am. That day I told my brother, if I'm still in ChoongHua, I can make sure you enter discipline room frequently. Can't stand his behavior. 

It's Guardian Sales. Get NanoWhite mask by free. Quite effective. Yet, I should sleep well but not count on mask. Nearly forget that I grabbed some skin products samples last months. Hada Labo, ZA and Bio-essence. Actually I have many samples at home but I never use them. Gonna use Hada Labo tonight since its slogan mentioned that one drop locks up an ocean. Ocean? Can I use it to let someone named Ocean back? 

Did I mention what sono sola mean before this? Two Italian words that I get to know from Eat Pray Love. It's means I'm alone. By the way, when only I can go for a movie? I want to watch Eat Pray Love but no one willing to watch with me. How sad~ Perhaps I should go by myself. I wish I can go travel alone and feel the world by my own.

I hate mosquitoes! They bite me and it's itchy! Told them many times not to bite me but they don't want to listen. Can't them be nice to me since they sucked many of my blood? 

P/S: I need to go book shop in order to buy a new diary. Wanna throw away the previous one. Try to get one next Tuesday as I'm going back to KL for MUET test. Shopping, I'm coming~

Random

Well, my holiday trip has been postponed again. It's okay since SimYee promised for a treat. SimYee, just be happy with your Langkawi trip and no worries for your ffks. 

Last weekend, spent my time in Kuala Kangsar. I didn't help much for the event as I pissed off with someone. Even daddy didn't say anything, how dare you act like directer? Can't you help but not stand aside and tell people what to do? Some more, I get to know that you said daddy won't recover after that accident. How can you say something like that to mummy? Are you a teacher? I don't think so. By the way, sorry for Mr Lau that let you saw my angry face. I really can't stand it. Once again, I would like to say that I hate those teachers in daddy's school but all of them. Just those who sit aside or chit chat while mummy, Phylliz, David and I have to do the works for you all. 

Found that my live style changed since last month. Rarely that my mobile phone won't switch off before I sleep. Ended up I will wake up few times during my sleeping time. As a result, I became goldfish. Why goldfish? Think of its characteristics. Besides, my skin became dry and dim due to lack of sleep. I need mask! Gonna visit Guardian for mask purchasing. *I should claim money from someone. That someone!*

Someone is going to dump me for few days. Wonder how am I going to pass my time. No place to go. I shouldn't let him accesses to my world. Perhaps I should say my life is occupied by him. Gosh~ He is having the link for both of my blogs. Therefore, I won't tell much here. I will lock my article in Wretch to avoid someone. =P

P/S: It's late now. Need to ask someone to sleep. You like a baby, who, needs many cares and loves.

What can I do

A lovely song from The Corrs.. Enjoy~

I have decided to stay. I don't want to runaway like that time with Ocean. It's not worthy! I don't want the same mistake repeated again. I will treat this as real experience like what I have read in novel. Pray for me ya~

By the way, Eat Pray Love is on the theater now. I want to watch!!!! Gotta go now~ Tata...

Hopeless

I wish I can runaway

Countdown+ing when I will sick. I need a good rest. Almost 2 weeks I didn't sleep well. Perhaps, I should go for a walk during raining time. Then, I can make myself sick and lay on the bed. Sleep sleep sleep and won't have extra stamina to think of something else. I wish I can runaway but I can't. I trapped again. Yet, I'm not dare to continue anymore. Should I be selfish and let go?