Salut, November

Last day of November. Time really pro in flying away.


Second month being as an intern in CapitaMalls. One more month to go. Plan to extend my internship. But mummy disagreed with it and asked me on holiday after December. But I already used to the life being an employee. 


Like my current life as I don't have to sit for exam. By work, I can learn something new and gain money. Yet, RM1500 ate by ****. Couldn't understand what kind of policy **** holds. Grab money as many as they can. Even though AirAsia grab money by adding this and that fee, but they really serve customers. However, ****... Even you paid money to them, yet, they can still show their sour face to you. Like you own them. Some more, **** lectures will tell you that **** is a non-profit organization. They should go to kindergarden or primary school. Those small kids will believe this "fact". Feel sad as being treated as idiot. But feel sad for them too. Tot themselves are smart enough. =P


Sometimes, I really speechless. I "rent" WS's DOMO. I used to hug it when I am working. Ended up my HOD said I am his secret admirer. Today lunch time, my HOD and his colleagues continued their story. Come on~ I just hug DOMO. How can they say I hug WS?! Ridiculous!!! Can't imagine that this rumours came from few uncles. But I don't care, I will still hug DOMO. Nobody can separate me and DOMO!


Sunday night, Phylliz, me and David have a great talk. Can't imagine that my little brother would share his stories to us. Sorry that I can't tell mine as those are bad stories. I won't confirm that people and that relationship. Anti a lots. Just hope that no one mention that people in front of me. I wish I won't know anything bout that people. None of my business and I sick of it.


Santa is coming to town soon. Like X'mas decoration. Jingle bells and X'mas tree are all around. My blog is celebrating X'mas throughout the year. Hehe. X'mas, the date for me and my family. It's just like another year reunion with family members. No outgoing with friends even though I have nothing to do on that day. Don't ask why. It's a story that only known by Chan Family. Perhaps, this should be my tradition.  


Like a phrase that I read in WeiBo. Being blessed isn't that you live with the life just like other did but live in your own way. Agree. Eat, drink, play, rest, work, study, sleep, walk, run and etc, all follow my own way. How good it is. I don't have to listen to others and follow others. Dislike to follow others way. I have my own way. Don't try to change people way by saying words. It's a bad behavior. Yet, it's just happened in my life most of the times. Make decisions for me and forced me to have no choice. Hate it a lots. Do you know that?!


December, the time for me to summary what I did throughout 2011. It will be my report card for this year. Just added one meaningful things on 27 November. Will post bout it soon. Many things to be recorded before I forget bout it. Hope I have the time to do so.

红豆

我是个挑食的女生。感觉不好吃，就不会碰。

苦瓜、茄子、羊角豆、番茄等，我都统统不碰。

印象最深刻是红豆。



每次的农历新年，家人都会喝红豆汤。唯独我不喝。

原因？就感觉不好喝。不知怎么的，总觉得红色的东东很恶心。

但我又记得小时候常吃红豆冰。

真矛盾。没办法，摩羯座就是这样。



后来，长大了，发觉我觉得不好吃的东西，放进口后，感觉还蛮不错。

苦瓜并不完全苦，苦尽甘来。而且，苦瓜的营养不错。

红豆，更成了我的最爱。但原因不是营养价值。



有一年的农历新年，突然想吃，就吃了。

很奇怪吧？我也觉得。

是不是觉得我很多感觉、觉得呢？我也觉得。呵呵。

后来，知道红豆对血液好。对红豆更爱不释手。



曾有个想法，不对，这想法仍成立。但我不能公开，免得有些人没创意，抄袭。

其实，我为什么会PO文呢。

纯碎想说，刚我和朋友去喝红豆汤。但淡淡的，不是很好喝。



不过，我很喜欢那喝红豆汤的时刻。

和几个好朋友在一块，聊聊天。

也决定了，下次不要到麻麻档。支持华人档，喝甜汤去呗。

好久没动手煲红豆汤了。


 
其实，其实，我不懂要写些什么。看着《康熙来了》，笑点不比RM少。

不想睡觉。但几个小时后还要和朋友见面。

目前，语无伦次中。呵呵。

希望阅读这篇文章的你们不会想揍我。

碎碎念

上班途中，想起了朋友的感情事。因此，有了以下的句子。

<有些痛赶在睡觉前结束吧 白天的思绪被折磨了那么久 为何还要剥夺让身心歇息的时刻>

好一段时间，我的脑筋无法生产那些被朋友们称为emo的句子。

这证明说我很久没emo了吗？ 

非也，我也希望我已远离负面情绪。

只不过，选择了忽略。发觉，不是每一刻的emo 需要被宣泄。

其实，快乐一直都在。只是我们总爱把事情夸大，把伤心放大。

结果，不懂得知足的我们总觉得快乐很小，傻傻地去制造更大的快乐。多么可笑的我们。

明明快乐就不少，明明伤心就不多。

我们却颠倒了两者的比例，搞得自己老是伤心泪流。何苦呢？

最近，我的脑海里有好多东西想写在部落格里。

碍于时间和电脑的问题，被逼等到现在才能宣泄我的灵感。

可惜，我的记忆不好，忘得八八九九了。

理智告诉她，那是关于他和他朋友的事，不能告诉他。

说了，就会破坏他们的友谊。但是他是她在乎的人。

她只坚持了几分钟，就一五一十告诉了他。

这个故事说明了理智无法和感情共同生存。

有没有发觉，自己总会告诉自己喜欢或爱的人任何事情，包括不应该说的。

被说中的人，好好想想吧。

有些事情，不是什么人都能说。

你无法预料下一刻ta会否转告别人。不然，死了也不知为何事。

与大家共勉之，不是什么事都能对别人说。

就算是家人，不该让对方知道的事，就是不该说。

昨天下班，是我最开心的时刻。听着栋梁的声音，真好。

谢谢妹妹通知我，不然我会错过这么精彩的时刻。

好想出席栋梁的签名会，让他在所有的专辑和文件夹签名。

我错过了两次，不想再错过第三次。遗憾，能免则免吧。

今天，他不会上电台，但电台会播他的歌。

我想我的回家路途会是愉快的。

我发觉我有好多发觉和发现。呵呵。

不想整理次序。想到什么就些什么，不想加以太多的修饰。

不自然的东西，我有些抗拒。

我想我知道我为何会对那些乔装的人有些许的反感。

我最喜欢的节日快到了。红彤彤的、金闪闪的，好漂亮的圣诞树。

多希望我的家就有一棵。

日后，我的家一定要有。那会是全屋子最温暖的地方。

早上接到吉祥的电话。好久没和他联络了。

八分钟的通话，笑声占据大部分的时间。

还以为我们会失去联络。好多中学时期的友谊都丢了，能保留至今好难得。

想称赞那些感情丰富的人。每段感情都爱得要生要死，老公老婆等。

分手没多久就可以找到另一个继续要生要死，老公老婆。我办不到，也不想办到。

我对感情的洁癖严重得很。记得斐曾告诉我宁缺勿滥。

所以，我一直在等待，我宁可孤单，也不要随意恋爱。

我可以对不起自己，但我办不到伤害别人。以前不行，现在也不行。

做了一些决定，自己喜欢开心就好。

别人说什么，不赞成不喜欢，无所谓。人生是我的，再也不要随着你们的话去走。

喜欢你们的惊讶，因为你们一直认为不可能的事发生了。 

我不是傀儡。 

再续。

Curi Tulang

Alone in my department again. Nothing to do now. Hope this peaceful moment lasts till 6pm. Then, I can go home and rest.


Late to work. Reason? Wake up late -> Bus late -> LRT late -> I am late. =P Heard water sound early in the morning, so I tot it was raining. Took my own sweet time, slept till 7 something. Went out and saw the floor was dried. Oh no! I am gonna late. Reached LRT station but LRT moved in slow mode. The time I walked to office already 8.55am. Lucky that quite a number of staffs went to Kuantan and nobody in my department. Tomorrow can't be late as HOD and manager will be around.


Last week, OT for 3 days consecutively. Plus, I reached company around 8.05am to start my work. What a busy week. Lucky I can take rest after most of the staffs went for company trip. I tot I will be free and can go home after lunch. Who know task given by manager. Ended up scolded by mummy as I let them waited for 30 minutes. Sorry, I can't sacrifice my salary. Therefore, I forced to sacrifice their time. Don't angry, treat you all nice food ya.


I need book. Read few books these few days. Used up RM50 to buy books. Gonna buy again this weekend. Glad that the book I want already on sale. I want to read! Being Taiwanese is something blessed. Lots of nice book. Being Malaysia, I have to wait till the books are imported from Taiwan. But there are some nice writer from Malaysia. Like Mr Khor and Dr George. Just bought Dr George's book. Shared his working experience, quite interesting. Seem like I have no faith with book fair. Book fair at The Mines, I can't attend again. How long I have to wait for it? Argh!!!


How nice if I can have a room where all are books. I will go Taiwan to purchase the books I want and bring them back to Malaysia. There will be a big window so that sunlight can brighten my room. A sofa with many pillows and soft wool. Then, I can spend my day for reading. When night time, I can just look at those shining stars. Just an imagination but I feel blessed as I am surrounding by books and do the thing I like. What else? Oh ya, I need money to own all these. JOey Foo, work hard for this. For the first time, you have idea for your future property.


Yesterday night watch FireMan 3. A HongKong drama series. In my mind, WangXi is the sample of fire fighter. Without him, FireMan series lose its soul. Nowadays, nice HongKong drama getting lesser. Some are just to promote those young artists. Dislike some of the young artists, got the look but can't sing can't act. While those can sing can act, hide in the dark. pity them. Haiz. Miss the time I was under 12. Many nice drama series. Now, Astro Wah Lai Toi can cut. Even 8TV provides more and better drama series. In addition, FOC! Thanks to Aunt Melinda. If not, money waste on Astro bad service. Think of HongKong movie, more worse. Decided not to watch those lame movie again. Waste money to enter cinema and feel sleepy.


Miss Running Man. Few weeks didn't watch. Miss Yu Jae-seok, Gary and Lee Kwang-soo. Jae-seok used to make fun of Gary. Gary is a good lover. Loyal to his girl if his girl is here. Funny when I think of his pattern during photo taking. Same expression, therefore, he has the name, Gary the Peace. Kwang-soo, himself already a laugh point. By doing nothing, just stand there. Think of his name, I started to smile. Whenever I watch RM, mummy and Phylliz will complain me for laughing. Enjoy the show. Then, you will know how joyful it is. Love it when I watched first episode.   


25 minutes to go. Better stop bla bla bla. Read novel first. Tata~

In Time

Another thing that I did alone is went for a movie. Just simply pick a film since I have no where to go and nothing to do. Before this, I tot the film won't be nice as one of the main character is Justin Timberlake. Not really likes him much. But after the film, my perception on him changed.




Nice storyline. Time = money. People work to gain time but not money. As time is the thing where it can process everything. Poor people can only survive for short period. While rich people can stay up to thousand years. Diamond ear rings, if buy with money, sure more than 5 digits. But it worth only 48 hours. Compared to time, money has low value.




How ridiculous when Slyvia stand with her mum and grandmum?! It is against the law of nature. All people will face old and death. This time system applied doesn't fit! You know when will you die. People used to countdown for birthday or new year. But have you ever try to countdown your death? CRUEL! You have to be alert all the time as there are thieves might kill you for your precious time. How happy will you be when you have to worry bout this and that?




No matter how the current system change or revised, the rich and the poor still be apart with a gap which getting larger and larger. Middle class is the worst. To be rich, far way to go. Therefore, try to be high class people. Act like a rich people while people laugh at your back. Sometimes, I really found some clowns who act very funny. You went for breakfast but you dress like you're out for some function. Come on, Bidor is just a small town, you need not to dress up so. All black wif a black bag plus your "fair" make up. A bit scary. Some how I should thank you for delight my breakfast time as I laugh.  




I tot her father will save Slyvia but ended up he didn't. Owning millions of time but stingy to give one million in order to save daugther life. How disappointed?! No matter how rich you are, without a kind heart, you are worse than an animal. Recently watch a DVD, learn something meaningful. We shouldn't do something which against the nature law. How well western country develop, there is something they should learn from eastern.




In Time, a nice flim to be watched. Highly recommended. I should reduce the number for movie. Don't want waste time for some lame movie. People laughing while I feel sleepy. Found that the life I have previously ain't I want. Thru my working life, I found the way I want. Won't let my life go on by listening to others. I belong to myself but no others. Please take back your words/orders/commands/etc on me. I am sick of it and I wanted to be free.

孤儿院记

二十一岁前 增添一件有意义的事 终于如愿到孤儿院 

虽然没机会接触所有的小朋友 但和几位小朋友有谈话已很满足了

 

幸亏我有隆隆这个坏蛋 让我学会怎么去画简单的图画

刚好能派上用场 要是有机会我会带这个坏蛋一起探望小朋友们

好让他知道他是幸运的那位 

遗憾 没做好准备 应该买一些食物和文具给小朋友们

发现婉莹知道的词汇不错 画画也不错

另一位 紫宁算是个聪明的家伙 命令我做这做那 自己就跑到别处去

但我乐于为她做事情

小朋友们似乎很喜欢巧克力 无奈我带来的巧克力只有那么一些

然而他们不该多吃 现在终于了解 小时候为何爸爸不让我吃糖果 为我好也

制作圣诞卡的当儿 身边多了一位男生

他的话不多 他的回应大多数是摇头摇手表示不

抱歉那么迟才注意你 未能和你有多一些的谈话

不要再什么都摇头摇手

你不说话 别人怎么知道你心里想要些什么

喜欢你的笑容 别老是一个人 融入人群多一些吧

与其说小孩子们吵 倒不如说这就是小朋友有的活力与热闹

看样子 他们有些调皮 事实上 只要肯和他们接触 他们会接纳你 听你的话

我能为他们做的不多 所以尽我所能满足他们的要求

清楚知道那些星星 不久后会进入垃圾筒 但那短暂的开心 黄金难买

这一趟 我似乎体会了好几件事情

小朋友们也有他们的自由去决定他们想要的

我们不该一味要小朋友跟着我们的意愿走 放手让他们天马行空

会发觉他们的心里世界多不可思议

至今我无法用可怜形容他们 因为他们至少有同伴 虽然会被欺负

比较无依无靠的小孩 他们拥有的多了 

忘了多久以前 曾阅读一篇文章 其提及探望孤儿们 其实并不好

是否想过你以什么心情道别 是否感受过那份落寞感？

短短几个小时 足以让一个人习惯有人陪伴

过后 却得和对方道别 我了解那份落寞感

不过观察小朋友们的表情 他们并没有落寞 也许他们已习惯了

心疼这份习惯 他们应该过着更快乐的时光

弟弟妹妹们 要快乐地成长 

过去 或许你们仍无能为力 但现在和未来 你们都能靠努力去改变

加油

后记：有种冲动想在孤儿院待上一段时间

融入他们的生活 和他们有更多的接触 帮助他们

但现时 我仍没能力办到 期待日后我能办到

某人 你送我的巧克力 我转送给小朋友们

与其放着不舍得吃 倒不如给小朋友们一份甜意

你说我不该为你祈祷 那我唯有默默地为你做好事积点德

该做的我都做了 接下来不会再做了 该结束的都该结束

你 爱我吗？

第一次 听见伍家辉的声音 就觉得马来西亚人怎么都不懂得惜才

他的声音 那样的不一样 不经意就能唱进你的心里

许多人只听流行歌曲 我很想说你们都没品

只为了追赶流行 而抹杀了一些非主流歌手的努力

就好像你并不是理科生 却被标为不是好学生

每个人都有自己的优点 不会某件事不代表他或她不行

伍家辉是我继张栋梁后 较注意的本地歌手

《一人一半》是他给我的第一印象

因《虽然我愿意》而更喜欢他的声音和作品

后来的《我疯你》再到现在的《你 爱我吗》

透过他的歌曲 你会感到心虚 那些你想隐瞒的事实 他都一一唱出

庆幸 这雨季有伍家辉的迷你专辑 

就算心冷了 但听他的歌心会渐渐回温

 

后记：

我不曾问 你·爱我吗

有必要知道答案吗？ 爱我又怎样？ 要是爱我就不会让我伤痕累累

你的爱 我要不起 更不想要

我想我并非想象中爱你 现在的我只想自由

就算我一个人过活 也会比和你在一起更幸福，更快乐

爱你 只会让我失去更多，错得更多

一再地犯错，失去，伤痛，失望，无助让我好疲惫

这一次 真的真的结束 好吗？

Job Record 2

I reach KLCC around 8.35am. But only one new Touch N Go machine is operating. Ended up long queue. Can't understand how the staffs work. This is what we called inefficient and this is what happened normally in Malaysia. After that, took a long path to company this morning. Reached office 5 minutes before 9am.


Tot that I will be free after yesterday lunch. I was wrong. My busy time just started after lunch time. Around 6pm, few documents contained in a big envelope and put on my table. As a result, deal with my work till 8.30pm only go home. I wonder where these documents came?! How come sent in so late?! While I am busy with my work, other department staff went in and said that I am free. So, asked me to count balloon amount for her game session. Her eyes okay or not? Bring 3 packets of balloon home and count.


First day of November, I earned extra RM12 for my salary. Yet, I was tired for that. Lazy to walk out for dinner after my shower. Then, fall asleep when I was watching Hong Kong drama. Money, you're difficult to earn but easy to spend.


This morning, most of company staffs are not around. So, I took my own sweet time to read novel online. Nice~ But to avoid my working progress too slow, continued yesterday work after 10 something. Copy and paste to come out with few lists. Those aren't my job. Yet, I have to do it. Luckily that I learned something during that.


Now, I don't have to answer other people call by walk to their place. Just press #1 then the call will transfer to my extension. But I am lazy to answer call. More than 10 calls per day while just I am alone to answer them. I wish telephone line break down. Then, no telephone ringing sound and no call~ [Sorry, I used to day dreaming.] 


At last, I arranged candidates for interview. After called them, I have to call manager for confirmation. Sick of calling the same people for time adjustment. I think telephone bill will increase a lots after yesterday evening. I am the contributor for used up company resources.


Can't mentioned what I did after lunch time. Always give me some P&C documents to keep. Ish~ I am stress to handle it. Wanna relax a bit also can't. Have to check frequently to avoid any mistake. Some more told me not to let people know. If like that, do it yourself. I can't stop people to enter department and saw it when I am doing my work. Or I wait after 6pm only do it. Less people in company and I can earn extra RM12 for OT again?!


Just received email from my colleague. Filled in form again. Triple work for the same thing. What for asked me to do list before this? Now, asked me to fill in form. Sick of doing it! They aren't work to simplify things but make things become more and more complicated. Or so called "cari pasal" in Malay.


Suddenly, a candidates called and wished to change interview time. I like don't know what to say. Can't make confirmation for her as I have to wait for my HOD to be free. Can't get him. Sure he off his phone now. Haiz. Hate to deal with these things. Wasting time. I am the middle person who have to make adjustment and do confirmation for both parties.


Triple work make me feel sleepy now. May today I can go home on time and can have TomYam fried rice. Miss it a lots.

Job Record

Bienvenue, 1st day of November! Since I never mentioned bout my job scope, today lets record what I did for my post as a little intent.


Well, reached office early with good mood. Just one step toward my department, I saw my table covered by different kind of documents. Before 6pm, I was told that no work for me to do. But this morning, those things appeared magically in my place. How "miracle"?!


Fine. Have my breakfast after clear all of them. Filling those agenda and invoice accordingly. Easy job. Then, insurance claims for company staff. I have to photocopy documents and send original copy to insurance company. Prepare cover letter and get signature from my manager. After that, send documents to other branch. Luckily, I started my work immediately. If not, I will miss the time for dispatch.

 Done. Within one hour, cleared all the things on my table. Yet, my breakfast time need to postponed again. Why? Received an email from my manager to arrange interview for candidates. I do really hate to call people and answer call. Call many times but no answer from them. Lazy to keep calling. Perhaps, make call again after lunch time. Please pick up my call!



Whenever my managers around, nobody will call. Right after they step out of department, their phone will ring one by one. I have to pick up the call for them. Sometimes, asked me something that I don't know. 
[See, just mentioned bout it. Then, I have to receive call. Argh!!!! Have to receive call.] 


I pretended that I hear nothing and refused to answer any call. However, when I decided to answer, the call stop by the time I reach my manager place. Annoying! I myself have to answer 3 people call. I am not here to answer call. I do really wish that I can ignore all the calls.
[I can hear that my manager is laughing. He is somewhere nearby department. ]  


Back to my breakfast, I had it during the free time in between. When I am eating, Finance manager came to check her leave balance. My god! Nearly died because of get shocked. Can I have a peaceful time to enjoy my meal? Next time, I shall put a notice that "NO DISTURB" to prevent people come to me for anything. Yet, many people in and out. One of the reason is take snack to eat. Just now a manager came and took snack. He asked me not to eat too much. Ehmmmm... You're the one who ate the most. Besides, I never eat that. 


Lunch time now. Don't feel like go out. Lazy to walk for meal with my colleague.  


My colleagues are discussing bout the male toilet. One of them, WS always complaint that someone didn't pass motion properly. Then, they said wanna took photo and circulate around. Another guy, WC said sent me to male toilet to investigate. Felix really went to take picture and show people. I asked him whether he can still eat. He answered me yes and he wants to eat vege. Ibrahim somemore suggest to make video in order to teach people how to use toilet. He saw me stood outside my department and laugh. Then pointed me and asked me to teach. Sweat~


These guys always play around. But happy to have them here as there will be lots of laugh. Just now I stood up and looked outside, WS saw me and he turned. Then, bang his cabinet next to him. Haha. He really funny. Besides, they are talkactive. Always talk nonstop. Most of the times, their department is the noiset in company.

To be continued...