Emo

How good if I can say something without think of responsibility? I wish I can just simply say that I wanna die like last time. How childish I am?! Now, I know why you say I'm childish. I am but no longer.

Never think of relax. As problem used to look for you when you're on leisure mood. I wish I can tell someone bout my problems! But I find no one. I can only tell part of them to certain people. Not everyone understand the situation and point out the right words.

Try to cry. After few tears, I can't force myself to cry. Reason?! Wondering. I used to cry when I face difficulties. Now, I don't as I know that tears do nothing. Even I cry till die, problem still waiting for me to solve. 

 Stop adding burdens on me! Not everything I can solve. I have my own difficulties to face. Eat more chocolate when you're upset. No matter how many you eat, you won't feel happy. Why? Eat too much and make your stomach suffer. How to be happy? Think logically.

 Leave me alone for few hours. I really don't have the mood to force myself to act happy. Everyday put on mask and face people is annoying and exhausted.

Plan E

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Actually, I sign in everyday.

Actually, I wanna to type something.

Actually, what I do unequal to what I want.

Actually, who I am?

Actually, who understand me?

Actually, who are you to me?

Actually, I'm not that tough as you think.

Actually, you all don't know me at all.

Actually, you have no right to say something to hurt me!

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Not everyone shows his/her expression on his/her face.

Sometimes, the happier someone is, the suffer some is. Why?

Because someone is pretending to be happy while someone is actually sad.

However, someone won't feel anything soon as he/she already numb.

I wish I can ignore what is happening recently.

Annoying! Stop telling this and that! I don't want to listen it!

Leave me alone! Stay away from me!

I wish I am a porcupine.

Without saying a word, people will stay away from me.

Even they're not "smart" enuf,

after feel the pain, they will remember to leave me alone forever.

My cactus died. Why?

Disqualified to be a knight. No longer strong enuf.

R.I.P~

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Perhaps, I should look for a cave or somewhere far far away.

Stay there alone.

Away from trouble, problem, pollution, etc.

Wanna out of here~

E stands for E.S.C.A.P.E.

I'm sick

First of all, congraz to myself as beat by virus and sick. Lack of vitamin and mineral. I knew it. What to do? I  tried hard to have regular meal. But nutrient, I really no idea. Tot of have yogurt. Just found that my yogurt drink spoil. Ish~ Must be someone did something to the fridge! Thank god, Aunt Mee Leng gave me some fruits. Orange, mango and apple. A day a fruit, should be healthy. 

Consequently one week, I didn't have proper sleep. 8am class caused me to wake up early in the morning. Then, these two days, every morning wake up by Aunt Melinda. Gosh~ Lucky she just came for 3 days. Or else, I will become panda. This afternoon, feeling no well for unknown reason and took a nap. After bath, I'm having runny nose. Argh~ I want a healthy life! 

Went to Star Hill last Saturday with my relatives. Pity my legs. Injured badly and have to walk slowly. Overall, I happy as I bought few items with cheaper price.I bought the lip balm for 60% discount off. So for the moisturizing lotion. Then, the washing cream was RM9.45. If I not mistaken, I bought it at the price of 60% discount off. Saved around RM30. Besides, gained 90 plus bonus points. Aunt Melinda was happy as she spend RM18 and grab many things. Moreover, that just cost her about 7.5 Sing Dollar. Oh ya, I forgotten to tell where I grabbed all these. It's Sungei Wang Wastons. Many people were there and bought many things. The promotion till today. Sorry for my late inform.

Going home this weekend. Yeah~ Nowadays, my class till evening. Can't take 6pm train. Have to take bus. It's Father Day on coming Sunday. 619. I have to go buy bus ticket in advanced to avoid sold off. Glad that Thursday got no class and I can go Pudu bus terminal. Hope there will be ticket for me to go home. Grandpa, bless me ya. See you on Saturday morning ya. Hehe~

Random

Always scratch my head to think what should I post. Today, I'm exhausted for that. Simply a random post by describing some special moments that I want to be recorded. Happy that I can record things by using my phone now. No longer like last time. Either use others phone or force to ignore it. Even though just 3MP but it's more than enough. We should appreciate what we're having.

Guess what is it?

My dinner, mushroom soup. Heavy rain since afternoon. Hot soup suits the weather a lots. Make my stomach warm. Before that, I forget to keep an eye on it. It spilled out. Thank god, my rice cooker didn't spoiled and electricity didn't broke down. Or else, I gonna "ganti rugi".

Two Saturday ago, Lionel went to my house. Chubby and hyperactive. Baked marble cake and he likes it a lots. Just to eat cake, he nearly cry when his mum comes and picks him house. A child won't lie. From this, you can know that how delicious the cake is. For your information, I did contribute during the baking process. Upgrade become mummy personal assistant. No longer the one who always sit and wait for "makan". Supposed mummy wanted to teach me how to make a dish with prawn. But no time for that. Don't know when only I can learn a new dish.

 A night during semester break. Get a cup of Horlick with cereals as supper. Nice and smooth~ Online in my room and chatting with someone. But now, we no longer chat to each other anymore. Perhaps, this is good ending before I mess up everything. How sad~ I don't have the chance to see the picture of ocean which taken by you. So, don't put high hope on others promise. You will feel disappointed in the end as life is unpredictable. Okay, stop being momo! It's pass tense now.

Apple, primary schoolmate. She is working in KL now. Last Wednesday, I went to her place. Dinner cooked by her. Simple and nice. After that, 5 people went for board game. Met few Utarians. We played for more than 3 hours. Actually I just sat there and accompanied them to play. What we play is Next Level. Similar with Millionaire. But this game is related to our daily life. Can choose occupation and shopping. The environment is nice for photo shooting. But my hair is messy so didn't take photo. Hope I will go there again.

 Don't know what happen to my stomach. Don't tell me that now only complaint me for having spicy lunch. Whatever~ Need a good rest. 3 days consequently woke up before 8am and slept less than 6 hours. Suffer. Thank god I don't have to suffer like this today onwards. But 7 hours class is waiting for me. Wonder what I will become after end of this semester. Please don't torture me. I have important thing to be done before this semester ends. 

Time to say TATA. Tomorrow will be going out with Miss SimYee.

No pain No gain

A simple wish that we rarely achieve. Need no other people house is undergoing renovation. Just a conversation is more than enough to wake me up. That's why I say 既简单又卑微的心愿. The easier the thing, the harder we achieve. What a contradict life~

Wanna sleep. Yet, I can't. Reason? Wondering. This morning went for 8am class. But no one is there. Wasted my precious time to date with Sleep God. Tot that I will feel sleepy during class. But I didn't. Thank god. However, I must rest early tonight. Anti those people who disturb me from "ooi ooi". Please be smart a bit. What is the time? Still want to talk a lots. You tot everyone free for whole day long?! 

Can I employ someone to help me carry things? Can't imagine how I gonna carry my things back to Cheras on this Friday. Regret+ing. Should use left hand instead of right hand. Tomorrow many notes are waiting for me to copy. Gosh~ I guess I need a personal assistant to help me. Any volunteer? Hope my hand will be fine soon. Oh no~ Wonder how I gonna take bath? Wanna cry~ Worse than "OKU" now. Perhaps, I should train my left hand to prevent same thing happen again. Arrrrgh~

Another record in my "buku 555". "Apa tu buku 555"? Please go to www.google.com and google it. But what I mean isn't "buku 555". Same size but red in color without 555. I guess those people who have it will know what I try to say. Happy that I did something meaningful. Glad that I achieved it and did better than last time. To be frankly, I afraid of pain but I have the courage to overcome it. Try my best to do more meaningful things in the age of 20. Therefore, don't give yourself excuse to quit before you try. 

Thank god I have finish my tutorial questions. Can rest early. Now, I need to figure how am I going to take bath by make sure that my hand won't contact with water molecules. Another problem is my finger. Haiz~ One day gained two wounds. 

Simple Life

Need no lots of joke to laugh.

Need no lots of topic to talk.

Need no lots of money to spend.

But lots of happiness gained by spending time with your dearest.

Enjoy today with my dearests.

Same things can be done with different people.

Yet, you will have different feeling.

Of coz, different happiness.

That's why I prefer to go out with my dearest.

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Once again, my food box is fulled with instant noodles.

No more rules for me to follow or obey.

Lets welcome instant noodles back to my meal list again.

But not daily meal unless I want my hair to fall more.

Got to know a new recipe from TV program.

Yogurt+Cornflakes+Berries.

I don't have berries. Still figure what should I use for replacement.

Hope I can get more recipes which are easy to prepare and without cook.

As I really lazy to wash cooking tools.

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Met two Malaysian artists within two days in different locations.

Normal being if you don't know them.

Is there any star luck fall on me since I met two Malaysian small stars?

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Recent

Tomorrow will be holiday. Yet, I didn't go back to hometown. Many people wondering. For sure, I have something to do. If not, Yesterday I already leave KL. Now, I will sit on the sofa and watch TV program in Sungkai. Confirmed that two weeks later, I will go back as celebrate Father's Day. Australia lobster spaghetti@RM19.90. That's what I can afford. Actually I have voucher for it. Hehe.

Decided to take 7 subjects like last semester. Force myself to work harder and harder to score better CGPA. Must stop myself from being too relax and cut my leisure time. Besides, avoid me go Star Hill for money wasting. However, I got a feeling that I will go there within two weeks time. I need a new bag that can last long which means better quality. Some more, I want an unique bag. Sick to see people have the same bag with me. Forced me to hide my bag. Spoil my mood.

Hot weather! Except cold beverage, what else can lower my body temperature? Even though I bath with cold water, yet, it makes no different. Damn it! When will this horrible weather gone? Rain, please come and moisture everywhere. It's scary to see that thousands of fish died because of hot weather in China. 6 more months before 2011 ends. Is it true that doomsday is coming? Please don't, I haven't finish my degree course and go for self travel. 

Feel like wanna download application that can block people call and text message. I have my right to ignore your call. If you dare to scold me for not answer your call, please don't be nice to me after some while. I hate it! Even I'm free but I don't wish to answer any call. Don't think that your call is important. If not because of Super SMS, I would change my phone number for centuries. Being an adult, wonder why you act like a silly guy?! Warming to those people who make me feel annoying, watch up and don't force me to block you. 

My health is unsatisfied. Must stop myself to have cold and sour beverage. Or else, I will go and visit doctor soon. Please, I don't want. Other than that, I need to pump in vitamins and minerals in order to have normal health. Found some new recipes that are easy to prepare and without cook. Besides, ingredients are my favor. Try to get it on Sunday. Hope can go Jusco as I need to buy many things. Can't wait for mummy comes to import my stuffs. I need it urgent! 

Most of the times, we want to plan something nicely. Yet, we're not allow to do so. Just accept it. Maybe you gain something for sacrifice original plan. 

P/S: Ish!!! Hate to see your message!!! Don't call me!!!

一个人

今天一个人呆在家
寂寞啊寂寞 我爱上你了吗
怎么一直训练自己 如和你相处


很多时候 我喜欢一个人
不是说有人陪在身边不好 只是会害了自己
习惯了 有一个人会在身边
一旦她或他离你而去 你就会感到不习惯
可悲的自己 得重新习惯一个人
一个人笑 一个人哭 一个人分享 一个人


只要我有了依赖 就会忘了独立自主
所以我很抗拒依赖
一个人 并不可悲
最可悲的是 你找不到一个人来陪你
结论： 一个人比较好