Emo

How good if I can say something without think of responsibility? I wish I can just simply say that I wanna die like last time. How childish I am?! Now, I know why you say I'm childish. I am but no longer.

Never think of relax. As problem used to look for you when you're on leisure mood. I wish I can tell someone bout my problems! But I find no one. I can only tell part of them to certain people. Not everyone understand the situation and point out the right words.

Try to cry. After few tears, I can't force myself to cry. Reason?! Wondering. I used to cry when I face difficulties. Now, I don't as I know that tears do nothing. Even I cry till die, problem still waiting for me to solve. 

 Stop adding burdens on me! Not everything I can solve. I have my own difficulties to face. Eat more chocolate when you're upset. No matter how many you eat, you won't feel happy. Why? Eat too much and make your stomach suffer. How to be happy? Think logically.

 Leave me alone for few hours. I really don't have the mood to force myself to act happy. Everyday put on mask and face people is annoying and exhausted.