Moody

Yesterday went to Ipoh. Tot that I will shop a lots. Umbrella, book, shoes and food. Wonder why I can't find the reading material I want. Get to know from Popular staff that out of stock. Thanks god not no longer selling it. Please reach Malaysia fast. I am lazy to read it online.


Back to KL during evening time. Thanks to my great daddy. Before that, stop by Sungkai to take my clothes. Then, stand with Uncle Peter and say Bye Bye to my family members. I am not naughty. But really do hope that I can stay in Perak. Way back to KL becomes a scary journey for me. Last time, I feel happy when I know I am going to KL. However, I wish I don't have to go back to KL.


On the way back to KL, listen to Nicholas's song, let's not fall in love again. Once again, you sang my inner thought. It's like every September is my moody period. Wish that all those negatives emotion gone after this. Perhaps, I should take precautions from now on. So that, September for 2012, I will be fine. Tired to being hurt and recover. Repeat the same process for few years. What feeling should I have for now?


Slept around 3 something in the morning. Watch Hong Kong drama. Don't feel like sleepy. But strong feeling that I don't want to work. Received text message from friends middle in the night. Such a long time didn't sms with friend late in the night. Just a while. Then, I am alone again in the dark.


Dream of someone. Waked up in between. Then slept again and continued the dream. Couldn't see your face. I guess I miss you too much. Before this, you were just beside me and I dream of you. Don't have the chance to tell you bout it. Used to worry that you won't be there for me. Yet, this no longer important anymore. I and lonely are nest friend ever. I am experienced enough to face this.


October is going to end soon. You are gone for one year. You know what I feel? Started to think that are you exist? I have your text message and email. But seem like couldn't prove that you're there before this. How weird?! Are you phantom? I wish I can leave like you without leaving anything.






P/S:
Weather: Cloudy
Listening to let's not fall in love again.
I am fine and please don't come and mess up my life. Leave me alone. Thanks.

十月杂记

工作篇

不知不觉，我工作了一个月了。难以自信，我终于工作了。总觉得自己不像个上班族，唯有忙于工作的当儿，才能找到那份归属感。偶尔，很空闲，几乎都在上网看小说。要不然，忙得一整天都对着电脑荧幕。下班时，我才有自觉，疲惫得让我好无言。虽然月薪蛮不错，但水是冷是热只有喝的人知道。

公司的人，很多时候让我看不过眼。可否注意我的用词，我并非形容他们为我的同事。原因？不想和他们扯上任何关系。原来，我现在才体会什么是真正的虚伪。求学时期，遇到的算是小巫。算了，他们别来找我麻烦就好。

这个月的目标达成了，加班了三次。七个小时，核对了上千份资料。可了解我为何说下班才有感觉？坐着几个小时，眼睛对着电脑荧幕。期间，我还得处理一些文件。有一刻，我觉得我的能力好有限。晚上九点下班时，公司里只有我一个人。那种感觉好恐怖，黑漆漆。

 

生活篇

连续回家四个星期，感觉真好。每次火车一到站，我走到天桥中央，就会自言自语对外公外婆说话。唯有高处，才能看见他们的所在地。感谢他们保佑我安全回来。就算工作有多累，当我知道我回家是被期待的，什么都值得了。要是有人等你回家，为你准备晚餐，你回家的心情会是温暖的。

每当星期日下午回到文良港，好不愿意。家中的床，我才睡了两晚就得离开。虽然我不挑床，但还是我家的床让我睡得最安稳。不知怎么的，我比之前更念家。也许，深刻体会工作后，一个人吃晚餐，看戏，睡觉的日子。

感情篇

真的不要再惊动爱情了。我会受不了，就让我一个人，上班，吃晚餐。有人说，我是个理智的人。也许吧，我不太认同。我还蛮感情用事的。要不然，我不会不听我的理智而让你一直伤害我。对于你说的理智，我只不过是不想惹麻烦。

这一次，我终于理智地选择离去。自找麻烦，换了面子书户口，也加强了保安。虽然理智和感情一直在拔河，但我不能再让自己受委屈。有些事情，不是我的。就算重心拥有几天，最后也不会是我的。这一点，我不该忘记。

原以为，最残忍的是自己逼不得已去放弃。但其实，最残忍的是让自己继续等待。再也不要这么笨让自己受委屈。并非没人疼我，不需要你来给我幸福。不过，感谢你圆了我一些卑微的心愿。这算是你最后的礼物。事情的最后，我还是没办法生气你，但我受够了，累了。这一次，就让这一切不了了之吧。

屠妖节

话说，屠妖节那天，和朋友外出。感谢子立从金宝来首都，辛苦了。

步行到茨场街，也就是大马的唐人街。

 

享用早餐前，来个甜而不腻的甜点吧。麻糍。

早餐是生鱼片粥。把生鱼片放入热腾腾的白粥，用粥的温度将生鱼片拌一拌，片刻就能享用新鲜的生鱼片粥了。动手后，才发觉没拍照。可惜。

由于时间还早，我们步行到附近的麦当劳打发时间。十点多，再步行到刘蝶广场唱K。原以为，没什人。殊不知，K房早被下定了。

继续步行到时代广场，还好这里有位子。首次唱《慢慢等》及《别再惊动爱情》。

×栋梁，抱歉。我对你的新歌仍不熟悉。待你的新专辑到手后，我就会加倍努力背歌。×

过后，血拼时间。男女分开走。购得裤子和裙子。我还是喜欢自己购物，不需要迁就和等待别人。

我的巴黎铁塔离我而去了，原想买新项链，但找不着。

甜点时间，雪花栈。绵绵的豆浆冰加QQ的珍珠，好吃。忆起上一次，一个人在谷中城吃。

碍于琪明天要考试及子立得赶火车，所以五点多就散会。

晚餐，吃台湾卤肉饭。味道蛮不错。价格也比趣台北便宜多了。


希望有机会能到台湾品尝真正的台湾美食。古早味的卤肉饭，炸鸡排及花枝，珍珠奶茶，芒果冰等等。

虽然吃吃喝喝很开心，但算钱时超心疼。算了，是我不及别人聪明。 唉，加班几次吧，把钱赚回来。

终于感受到钱赚来不易，要小心使用。

Looking Forward

First of all, I am not Justin Bieber fans.

Shawty means pretty girl. Guys, learn this word and use it to call your girl. Fall in love with this song. Must not let my phone on silent mode. So that I can listen to this song whenever people calls me.

Do hope I can receive Christmas gift for this year. After listen to this song, I am looking forward for Christmas. Snowflakes, mistletoe, Santa, reindeer, present, tree, light and joyful. I must get the Christmas dress I like. Thank god Christmas falls on Sunday and Monday is an extra holiday for me. Yippie~

Lots of story happened during December. Joy and tears. Yet, it is the month I like the most but not my birthday month. Most of my birthday celebration did in December and nobody free to celebrate for me on my birthday. Therefore, I used to treat December is my birthday month.

Time flies in speed mode. After Christmas, my birthday will be around the corner. Plan for birthday celebration since friends request for it and mummy agreed with it. Need to find a best timing for everyone to gather around. Headache when I think of it.

21 years old, new stage of my life.

My Office Story

Another Friday comes. Yeah! Tomorrow can wake up on my bed. My brother praised that whenever I sleep on your bed I can't wake up. Of coz, my bed, sure comfortable. Now, understand why I always wake up late.

My first official paid for 5 days work. I don't think I did many things. Most of the times, I just online and surf weibo, blogspot and walk around chit chat with other colleague. I need to OT one more time to ensure I can earn rm*00 next month. Left RM2 to hit my target. Must get an excuse to stay back on next week.

Tot that I will have more time to online. However, no internet service at my house. FB blocked in my office. Can't find a way to hack in. Any computer prof. here? Please teach me to log in FB with secret path. My colleague told me FB is blocked in company. That day I went to her place and saw she logged in FB. Ish! What she said is different from what she did. Seem like most of the people in my company behave like this. 

Don't know what happened to the sensor. Everyday reach office, keep on playing with the sensor. Access denied! I hate these two words. Next month, my colleague who works as receptionist won't be around. I don't know how long I have to stand for people to open the door for me. Feel like wanna complaint to department which in charge with the stupid sensor. 

Enjoy having hot green tea. Unlimited provide. Nice~ 

工作

《乔伊·实习生 杂记》

昨晚，工作到八点多才回家。结果，被妈咪训。这么晚了，一个人回家很危险。我知道，但在家我无所事事，只能看戏等睡觉时间到。倒不如，工作多两个小时，多赚十二令吉。这样，我就能完成更多的工作。明天就能做别的新工作。


还蛮喜欢下午的时间，那才是投入工作的时候。忙着忙着，六点，七点，八点，时间很快就流失。 基本上，午餐时间前，我的工作都很琐碎，但会花较多时间完成。结果，午餐时间，我得在公司里边吃东西边整理文件。


人事部，工作看起来很简单，也很无聊。但得处理许多文件，有些更是秘密。身为实习生，我很幸运能看许多员工的资料。呵呵。我还以为我的资料会藏起来，不让我看见。怎么知道同事要我处理自己的资料。好失望。幸亏我忍住好奇心，没去翻查我的资料。


大部分时间，我都很空闲。之前，常进进出出，找别的同事聊天。结果，被行政部抓去复印文件。前天，还为了行政部而工作到晚上八点。其实，那天我只倒了几杯水。但赚了不少，额外十二令吉加一餐美味的晚餐。算不错的福利了。


我一旦空闲，要嘛跑进跑出，要嘛上网。结果，被经理投诉我太空闲了。不是我的错，工作我完成了。无所事事，我唯有上网。不然，要我呆呆坐着或跑出跑进吗？无奈，不知如何是好。慢慢地把工作完成不是我的习惯，受不了慢慢来。难怪，那么多文件仍未处理，原来是秉着“慢慢来”的工作方式。


我打算，一个月要加班六次。这个月，我还没拿薪水，两天的薪水就飞走了。好难过！一天的薪水，我得加班三次才补回。现在才知道，我的薪水不是固定的。要是一个月有三十一天，我的薪水才是XXX令吉。否则，就要除三十一天再乘于那个月的日数。除此，我没有假期。一旦拿假，我的薪水又要离我而去了。很不巧的，我提起的这两件事都发生在这个月。


我怀疑我的电话不会响，但又会有谁打电话给我。可是，我得帮别人听电话。最恐怖的是可是，三部电话轮流响。起来->听电话->坐下->起来->听电话->坐下->起来->听电话->坐下。结果，别的部门看我跑来跑出，奇怪我在干嘛。


下午四点半了，还有一个小时半才能下班。星期五，不会是我的加班的日子。今天，更不会，因为我要回家。完成这篇网志，我就要开始工作，虽然下星期五才到期，但我设了目标。今天，至少要完成三百组资料。

无题

人身在家乡，但明天就要回去首都了。
搭火车，抵达士林河站后，

车长竟说：“由于比原定的时间早到，所以在士林河站停几分钟。”

有种吐血的感觉，就差那么一站我就到家了。

短短的几分钟，犹如几个小时。

 

话说，这是我最喜欢的早餐。

有香脆的烤面包，新鲜的生熟蛋及酸甜的西茶加桔子。

只要我有回家乡，就会到泉昌吃早餐或喝茶。

聊聊天，喝喝茶，吃吃面包。同时，也是我和朋友们多年来的习惯。

到茶室不是老人家做的事。

像我们，九点多就在茶室坐。有时，店家因我们而延迟关店。

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我的工作伙伴，电脑。

不喜欢其键盘，好难按。一点都不像我的手提电脑。

要是可以，我想带我的手提电脑上班。但碍于我俩的安全，办不得。

对，工作时间在上微博。呵呵。

没办法，无所事事，唯有上微博看看。

电话，计算机，日历，文具，等。我的工作伙伴也。

计算机，基本上没什么用得着的地方。不晓得它的存在是为了什么。

电话，响起不超过五次。我却得跑去别人的座位接电话。

重点是，我的电话号码是什么，并不晓得。

星期一下班前，自拍。

一个人在办公室里，为所欲为。

 有机会，写一篇关于我工作的一天。

刚看了一篇文章，鞋底过厚会伤害关节。

难怪，我每次穿都不舒服。

哎呀！我的人字拖被发现了，不能再穿去工作。

 平底鞋则会弄疼我的脚踝。

到底要多少双鞋子才足够我应付这一切？

 小青，你何时才回到我的身边？

赶快修好吧。有你在，我最自在了。不像小灰，老是折腾我。

 

上班服成了我另一个烦恼。

唯有，大胆地玩混搭。将我的连身裙当上班服。

连续两个星期二都穿裙子。

但有一点不好，好冷！

目前，计划着把我的T恤转变成上班服。

羡慕那些上班女郎常打扮得美美上班，但我没这个兴致。

第一天化妆之外，其余都以素颜见人。

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下雨天，湿嗒嗒的空气，有点儿凉的温度。

睡觉迷的最爱，但我不想睡觉。

=P

Recently

Salut to both September and October. Left only one quarter of 2011 to go. Must work hard to do something meaningful and memorable.


Well, recently I am having new lifestyle. Sleep earlier. Have my dinner on time. Since last last Saturday, I have my dinner. What a miracle. Don't know what happen. Don't feel like hungry but do it like duty. I guess I start to love myself more. No internet at home, just watching the same movie and drama again and again. Actually I need only the sound.


Finally, I understood why daddy stay at school early in the morning till midnight. Where can he go after work? He is alone and no one beside him. Better stay at school and do something. Yesterday, I made my move around 8am and reached home around 7.30pm. Actually, I can go back earlier but I didn't. Stay in office and online till my manager asked me to go home. Go back just eat, bath, rest and sleep. Make no different.


Read an article bout my horoscope. For the first time, I feel like it's true. What happened to me is included in it. I don't know what someone will feel like. But I knew my own feeling. Chances have been given to someone so many times and someone doesn't appreciate it. Therefore, I decided to stop myself for giving chance. Not to say not worthy. Just that I don't have to do so anymore.


Gonna deactivate my FB account soon. Before that, I would like to share a story between J&J. Hope I have enough time to type the story. After one year, the story between J&J should be let go. As long as J is happy and fine, then it will be okay for J.

Wanna back to my blogging life. Blogspot should do like Wretch so that blogger can lock his/her post. Blog is like my diary that contained many secrets. Used to hide my story with other things. Unless you are the one in my story. Or else, you can only guess for nothing.

10 minutes more, I can go home and rest. Headache. Home sweet home, day after today.



 

R.I.P , Steve Jobs. You're a great leader. Steve Jobs = Apple.