Moody

Yesterday went to Ipoh. Tot that I will shop a lots. Umbrella, book, shoes and food. Wonder why I can't find the reading material I want. Get to know from Popular staff that out of stock. Thanks god not no longer selling it. Please reach Malaysia fast. I am lazy to read it online.


Back to KL during evening time. Thanks to my great daddy. Before that, stop by Sungkai to take my clothes. Then, stand with Uncle Peter and say Bye Bye to my family members. I am not naughty. But really do hope that I can stay in Perak. Way back to KL becomes a scary journey for me. Last time, I feel happy when I know I am going to KL. However, I wish I don't have to go back to KL.


On the way back to KL, listen to Nicholas's song, let's not fall in love again. Once again, you sang my inner thought. It's like every September is my moody period. Wish that all those negatives emotion gone after this. Perhaps, I should take precautions from now on. So that, September for 2012, I will be fine. Tired to being hurt and recover. Repeat the same process for few years. What feeling should I have for now?


Slept around 3 something in the morning. Watch Hong Kong drama. Don't feel like sleepy. But strong feeling that I don't want to work. Received text message from friends middle in the night. Such a long time didn't sms with friend late in the night. Just a while. Then, I am alone again in the dark.


Dream of someone. Waked up in between. Then slept again and continued the dream. Couldn't see your face. I guess I miss you too much. Before this, you were just beside me and I dream of you. Don't have the chance to tell you bout it. Used to worry that you won't be there for me. Yet, this no longer important anymore. I and lonely are nest friend ever. I am experienced enough to face this.


October is going to end soon. You are gone for one year. You know what I feel? Started to think that are you exist? I have your text message and email. But seem like couldn't prove that you're there before this. How weird?! Are you phantom? I wish I can leave like you without leaving anything.






P/S:
Weather: Cloudy
Listening to let's not fall in love again.
I am fine and please don't come and mess up my life. Leave me alone. Thanks.