Surprise

Yesterday, mummy asked whether I will go back on her birthday. I told that I will have test on that day, so can't go back. Too bad~

 

Actually, I lied to mummy as I planned to give her surprise. Then, sms-ed to daddy that he is booked on mummy's birthday. Hope he won't go for any meeting, wedding dinner or any events. To make sure my plan is perfect, I asked Phylliz to celebrate for mummy. Less people know about it, the probability of getting success will be higher. For those who read this article, please keep this "secret".

I'm plan to buy Secret Recipe for mummy. Yet, where I should go to buy it and where I should keep it? Or ask Phylliz to buy cake at hometown. Next week, I will go to Bukit Bintang to buy shoes for my cousin sister's wedding dinner. I shall take this opportunity to buy present for mummy. Wonder what should I buy for her. I have asked my friend to buy train ticket for me on Saturday. I shall leave right after my class end. Too many things need to plan well. May I can get train ticket and my plan will success. Pray for me ya~

P/S: Mummy, sorry that I lied to you. 

Yet, I have to keep lying to make sure the plan can go well.

Taste Bud

Yesterday, I had a glass of lemon yoyo ice. It supposed to be sour and sweet in taste. Yet, what I tasted was bitter. Then, I told the seller bout it. He added sugar syrup for me, however, the result remain the same, I still can taste bitter. Normally, there will be 3 or 4 slices of lemon. But, in my beverage, there is 5 or 6 slices of lemon. Is the problem caused by lemon? Too sour until bitter? Sounds impossible. 



Every time I drink HL milk. For sure I will taste a bit 1st. As I have too many experiences that my milk already spoiled. Once, the milk no longer liquid form but in jelly form. Imagine how disgusting it is. Thank god, I poured it into my glass before I drink. But this time, my milk expired before 10th July. Why it will spoil before the expired date? Now, my cereal breakfast lacks of milk. How am I going to have honeystar and milk?

Why my life so "bitter"? I rarely taste bitter food or drink, yet, my taste bud can still sensitive to bitter. Good~ But,I don't taste anything which is bitter. Hate it!

 

Sad Mode

Sad mode is on. Wondering why someone would treat her like that? She can't figure out how to prevent herself not to be used by that someone again and again. 

She hates to wait people yet she is willing to wait for that someone. She hates to be betray yet she forgive what that someone did to her. She dislike more and more. Yet, that someone did all these to her. How about her feeling? Did that someone think of it before? For sure, NO. Curious that someone treat her as what? Nobody or nothing?

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It's hard to recover when someone you care hurt you deeply and many times. Even though you are willing to forgive what he or she did, but you will still feel unwell. No matter how the body tissue attempted the wound, the pain will be there. Why would you hurt people that much while people did nothing wrong to you? I wish you can answer me all these questions. I wanted to know what is inside your "mighty" brain.

I hope I can escape from all these things. Do you know that? Why you're there? Why don't you stay in J city? I'm tired to being hurt and recover and repeating the same process for almost 5 years. If your purpose is to torture me, then I would like to congratulate you for did it successfully. Please let me go and stay away from me! I would like to choose not to have such people in my life if time go back to 5 years ago.

 

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Once again, I'm hurt. 

Once again, I'm recovering. 

Once again, I'm lose. 

Once again, I'm failed. 

Once again, everything backs to its original place.

Once again~

Hopefully

I know that isn't a good solution. That's why I hope that I'm the lucky one as usual. If not, big problem will be facing. I don't want those people around me headache for it. It's not a suitable timing.

Sorry for being selfish, yet, this will be the only way to make sure that everything is alright. I don't wish to spoil current situation.

May the condition I'm having now is the sign of being the lucky one. 

*Cross my fingers tight tight and pray for it.*

Tired

Miss those silent moment.

I wish to stay alone at my private corner.

If I can do something now,

I hope I can runaway from here immediately.

Reason?

I need some peace.