Sad Mode

Sad mode is on. Wondering why someone would treat her like that? She can't figure out how to prevent herself not to be used by that someone again and again. 

She hates to wait people yet she is willing to wait for that someone. She hates to be betray yet she forgive what that someone did to her. She dislike more and more. Yet, that someone did all these to her. How about her feeling? Did that someone think of it before? For sure, NO. Curious that someone treat her as what? Nobody or nothing?

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It's hard to recover when someone you care hurt you deeply and many times. Even though you are willing to forgive what he or she did, but you will still feel unwell. No matter how the body tissue attempted the wound, the pain will be there. Why would you hurt people that much while people did nothing wrong to you? I wish you can answer me all these questions. I wanted to know what is inside your "mighty" brain.

I hope I can escape from all these things. Do you know that? Why you're there? Why don't you stay in J city? I'm tired to being hurt and recover and repeating the same process for almost 5 years. If your purpose is to torture me, then I would like to congratulate you for did it successfully. Please let me go and stay away from me! I would like to choose not to have such people in my life if time go back to 5 years ago.

 

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Once again, I'm hurt. 

Once again, I'm recovering. 

Once again, I'm lose. 

Once again, I'm failed. 

Once again, everything backs to its original place.

Once again~