To you, I'm Childish

My world status:

A Cloudy Day even now is sunny day

If this is my heart

let say these two is the major wound

then there will be

more and more wounds and scars on the other side

which caused by the same person within these 1886 days

before this I already numb with these injuries

yet yesterday I get hurt again

to you I'm still that childish like last time

There was once

I forced myself not to cry for 3 months

just because 

do whatever you want and

I'm the one who have to follow what you say

don't you think that it's unfair to me?

wonder was there a second for you to think of my feeling?

Even though you stay far from me

yet I can still get to know your news from others

whenever you did something

there will be someone told me bout that

can I request to those people

don't tell me about him anymore

I and him no longer friend

If he did something wrong to you

and you wish to take revenge or whatever it is

please look for him but not me

but those people won't see this article

and I can't directly tell them

If last time I will like this

CRY and EMO for no reason

but now no longer

I learn to keep those negative feeling and feel the pain

even I'm EMO

I will still pretend that I'm happy

 

How to cure it???

maybe these is what I need

but time can't erase those memories

and recover the original me

just like after you recover from injured

the wound might be gone

your skin might look like last time

but we know that that part of cells are no longer the previous one

as they already died

I wish to cry

but I can't as I already forget how to cry

and cry can't solve any problem

a chemical substance to me

which taste salty

when was the last time I cry?

2 months back?

I think so

After express all my unhappy

feel better now 

  

why kangaroo?

as JOey means kangaroo baby

like those cartoon

kangaroo good in boxing

I'm JOey so I will punch those unhappy away

 

I'll be OK soon

1886 days

Bye~

// Do hope that

this will be the last time for me to say goodbye